andy BEIllIN: u just calll out my name
andy BEIllIN: and u kno whereever i am
andy BEIllIN: i'll come runnin
andy BEIllIN: to see u again
andy BEIllIN: ooh baby dont u kno
andy BEIllIN: winter spring summer or falll
andy BEIllIN: all u got to do is call
iCH adWi c kEdi: shut up bitch
iCH adWi c kEdi: just lift ur skirt
andy BEIllIN: wtf
andy BEIllIN: hah
iCH adWi c kEdi: iono im being a wife beater
iCH adWi c kEdi: har har har
iCH adWi c kEdi: to make the situation not romantic
andy BEIllIN: im going to repoirt you to sonny!
iCH adWi c kEdi: that security guard in PMS?
andy BEIllIN: yea
andy BEIllIN: lol
iCH adWi c kEdi: holy crap i forgot his name
iCH adWi c kEdi: ur crazy
iCH adWi c kEdi: u got a genius memory
andy BEIllIN: sonny tan man
andy BEIllIN: how can u forget
iCH adWi c kEdi: hahha
iCH adWi c kEdi: with the mustache
iCH adWi c kEdi: and the glasses
iCH adWi c kEdi: and one time he shaved his mustache
iCH adWi c kEdi: crazzy
iCH adWi c kEdi: dman i cant believe u still remember
iCH adWi c kEdi: sonny tan sonny tan!
andy BEIllIN: hahaha
iCH adWi c kEdi: haha i totally forgot
iCH adWi c kEdi: but his name clicked
andy BEIllIN: he'lll always have a place in your heart
iCH adWi c kEdi: what did i say bitch
andy BEIllIN: lift up my sirt?
iCH adWi c kEdi: yes ur sirt
andy BEIllIN: im gona jack off in your sandwich
iCH adWi c kEdi: oh yes baby
iCH adWi c kEdi: gimme some of that mayo lite
Today, I was practically the only volunteer there which gave me an opportunity to talk to more kids. I decided to do 2 hours today, so I can see how the other class is doing. With plain observation, i could see more multi-racial interaction in this class. The kids were more split by gender rather than race. All the girls sat in one side, and all the boys the other. All of the students talked to each other(those of the same sex) and seemed like pretty good friends regardless of race.
side note: I foudn out that the first class was going on a field trip next thursday to lion king!! for only 20 buxx!! so lucky, I wanted to see it.
well we just had people read their point of view stories so I wasn't able to talk to the kids much. THe story was interesting tho, it was about a Japanese man helping Jews write visas to avoid the Nazis.
The second period was more eventful. I talked to Justin again about Dave Chapelle. I guess thats what we have in common. It seems that Chappelle is crazy now or sumthing and went to the mental hospital. We then talked about what he would be doing in the summer. He said hes gonna stay in Davis and do nothing. good boy! and from before, he was gonna go back to Korea in December.
The kids didn't really need help this time. So I went over to the kid that always finishes way ahead of everyone. Kevin, also Korean, and also came from Korea 3-4 months ago was a very talkative boy. He seems to get along with everyone and fit in well because he is not afraid to speak up. His mother is a researcher and got a one year job in Davis, that is why he is here.
I asked him how school was like in Korea, because I was surprised he knew English and spoke English so well despite the fact that he only came here a couple of montsh ago. He said it was like a prison, where You have to study day and night. 18 hours on the weekend he said. He said the pressure was so intense that 2 of his friends committed suicide. SUICIDE! i was shocked to hear that, and shocked to hear it from such a calm voice. It seemed like suicide happened a lot because of hte intense pressure of education in Korea. It reflects the topic of education in the perspective of Asian families we had talked about in class. In Korea, education is pretty much life or death. Job or no job. I couldn't believe how much more the kids have to go through. Kevin said he had to take 5 languages includig Korean. He said that he would rather stay here in America, and I could see why. Korean education is insane!! there is way too much pressure.
He told me how he stayed up 4 days to study for a test, then come home, sleep 2 hours and study for a test the following day. I can see why some can't handle the pressure. I felt uneasy after I left class, thinking about the kids who commit suicide. If education was THAT important in their home countries, it is not surprising that Asian Americans value education so much. Also, being able to study that much on a daily basis provides immigrant children a good foundation for education here. They have already been through the worst, i think many excel in America because of the extra effort that they are able to put in. Even if they seemingly study excessively, it must be easier than if they were in Korea.
We watched a movie today again. It was something about Pecos Bill and tall tales. Very interesting. So we didn't do much of anything else today. I'm feeling pretty good about helping the kids. I've really learned from this experience, like how to communicate with kids and help them out.
I learned from Young today that a hair cut in Korea is 5 bux!! i dont noe if thats in korean money or US. eh well
Well, today was a work day, and it was grammar again. I wasn't sure how to explain how to change verb tenses from present to past, because there aren't scertain rules for a lot of words. they just are. Instead of just talking to the Asian kids, I helped those in need. There was a European kid i think he was german and he had a lot of trouble with is worksheet. He did not know a lot of the words off the top of his head. But we worked through it and he finished at the end.
I noticed that two of hte korean boys always finish their work very quickly, Justin and Kevin. It almost seems as if they don't need to be there. kevin always busts out his tetris in his electro dictionary. and justin alway sits there or puts his head down and rests. I guess for some immigrant kids it comes easy. The south American kid is very proactive and talkative and also finishes his work pretty early too. It seems as if he wants to lead the class all of the time.
Well today, I didn't get to help much, except with Young and his essay. It seems that I haven't seen the Asian girls speak in class much yet. The guys do make noticeable effort in class though. But I think it might be because I'm only there twice a week. We watched Clash of the Titans, and Jake was talking about it because he saw it before. Haha when the teacher asked him what creatures were there, he said Godzilla. It was a Greek Gods movie. But that creature did look like godzilla.
Another volunteer thought I was a middle schooler.. sigh...
I've noticed that there are certain kids who are very outspoken, and those who barely speak. The 2 South American students, Sergio and Louise are the loudest of the class. Out of the Korean boys, Kevin speaks out as well, but he has no noticeable accent and he speaks fluidly. Justin and Jake make effort to answer questions from time to time, but either stumble on words or is very quiet. Young doesn't speak at all. I have never heard the Korean girls speak up. There is an African girl that participates but speaks softly and has a heavy accent. There are 2 European boys who don't speak much also due to a heavy accent.
This shows that immigrated children are reluctant to speak up because they are uneasy about how they sound or what they say. I hope that this program will help them with this problem.
Today, we listened to this hilarious rap about the Greek gods. it was hilarious. The guy sounded like a middle aged man and he was trying to rap. hahah funny how they try to reach kids by rapping. too bad i cant find it online.
Well I forgot to post last time, so here it is. Becuase of STAR testing, the classes for this week was shorter so I did 2 classes on Friday. Both of the classes read stories. First class was Amistad Rising, and the second class was Echo and Narcissus. It was funny because when the teacher asked the class why Narcissus did not like Echo, one of the kids blurted, "cus hes gay!" haha crazy kids.
I didn't have a chance to talk to the first class..
In the Second class, I found out that my assumption was correct. All the Asian students in the class were from Korea. I wonder what caused this. I asked Young about where he came from, and he, like Justin just came from Korea 3 months ago... 3 months ago was February. And his father works at UCD as well. I guess a lot of these kids are from families of the immigrants of scholarly or high professional status.
I saw that Young had this fuzzy pencil bag. He got it from his Grandma. It was by this company "NICI" that i never heard of. This is an instance of transnational networking heh.
Well due to the star testing schedule changes, and my inability to wake up, I had to get from my dorm to the school in like 10 minutes!!! i made it just in time. good thing for the practice from biking to orchestra twice a week phew...
today they had grammar practice again.. man i feel bad because I don't know how to explain that stuff.. i just do what sounds right haha.. and sometimes i'm wrong.. sigh.. college student dont know basic grammar. cus Yoong asked me how to tell between has had and have, and most of the time, have and had can be interchangeable! and I never even use 'had' as a helping verb. well i tried my best and i couldnt explain it to Yoong.
It seems the two kids that I talked to from last time are not as shy anymore. ice broken! yea i was surprised that Yoong continued to ask me for help even when i couldn't help him on his helping verbs. so I read his essay, and helped him correct it. overall, it was good, but there were some stuff like verb tense and word choice. heh he kept spelling disasters disater, and i said hah u need a lot more s's in there and went ssss..... and he laughed! man im good.
Justin was very quick with his work, after a little bit he took out a book and started reading, and then he just sat there. i thought: perfect opportunity to learn more about these kids! we were just talking about what he does on his free time. basically what i used to do, sit home on the internet for long periods of time and occasionally go out with friends, but not too far because of no car. He is Korean, and I was wondering if any of his parents were working at UCD. apparently his dad also works at UCD, and it seems like a lot of the kids have a parent or parents working as a professor at UCD. Maybe some have students at UCD. So these kids have similarities in that their parents are in the professional field. Probably part of immigrants who are in the professional/technical/education group.
He continued talking saying that he was born in New York, and i was surprised to hear that because I thought he might have come from Korea or something. but he did go back to korea when he was 3 years old and came back just 3 months ago! wow. he was pretty good at English too, seeing that he finished so quickly and I could carry a conversation with him pretty well. I didn't notice any distinct accent. but the problem he faced was that it was very hard to make friends. i asked him why. one word: language. I guess even if you know english, there are certain cultural terms that might seem like another language. He also told me that he can't find anything in common to talk about. He is going back to Korea for Christmas this year. It seems that he travels a lot, so there is a lot of adjusting to do. I guess the term to explain it is that he is having trouble "assimilating" and that he is a "transnational migrant" basically, or at least he is "transnational" because he was born in the states. It was good talking to him, and I think he opened up more because unlike last time, he asked me questions too. It reminds me of my personality.
In the beginning, the teacher asked if anyone did anything interesting or fun this weekend. One girl said she went shopping! and one korean boy, Jake, said his mom came back! so that his whole family was here, mom, dad, sister and him. she is staying for a week. I believe she travels back and forth from korea. that must suck to have missing parent all the time.
oh! there was also one smart looking kid who always finishes first that was also from korea! i thought he was chinese... well he was talking to this latin? kid sergio about studying. he studied 12 hours in Korea!! well kids exaggerate to brag, cus sergio says he never studies and gets 90-100. but it gives a hint of how life was like in korea.
in conclusion: it seems there is a majority of korean americans in davis whos parent/parents work at UCD. The problems the kids face is assimilation through language barriers and travelling back and forth. Maybe the parents are able to be there as much because they are working or travelling. The kids are good kids, and they will talk if they are talked to more. I think it takes a while to warm up and build confidence because they are worried about not being able to communicate with others.
caL75x: blog bitch iCH adWi c kEdi: lol wth i blogged frequent enough iCH adWi c kEdi: im working on my fizzix caL75x: bitch go blog caL75x: dont talk back to me
whoa whoa whoa now.. friends since like 4/5th grade and this is how he treats me? what is this, a fad to force me to blog and refer to me as their bitch? crazy! maybe because I am not mean enough, but if i become meaner i wont be pushed around like this!
I am eating my late night cereal! yay!
@*#*#@##@*&@$ YOU WILL DIE BIZZNITCH!!
what now!! whahah k i have to study for physics quiz
^A video game I was playing to soothe addictive cravings.^
sorry for the boring post at first, dont read it seriously. It's just to keep track so i can type my 3-5 page things.
so I was sitting in my dorm room and i hecka wanted to play ping pong, damned that game is fun. i was like watching ping pong videos and reading ping pong tips like a fool! a damned fool! i even grabbed my triangular highlighter like a paddle and hit my stuffed shrunken head guy around.
slam that shizz biznatch.
so yea, everyone needs to start playing ping pong, so i can have someone to play with.
Well the reason that I am posting today is because I am doing the volunteer project for my Asian American Studies class. This is to avoid the damn 2 5-7 page research papers, and just volunteer, and use my bs skills to churn out 2 3-5 pages. Fair trade? maybe. I'm guessing the volunteer might even help my resume.
So today I walked into Ms. Smith's ELL class, ( I don't know if this is the same as ESL). Looking across the room, the ethnicities of the kids were pretty diverse, not only Asian so I though, "interesting, i am not sure how to right about Asian American experiences if there are not even that many Asians in there to begin with." Oh well, maybe I can do a compare contrast thing. The kids were all drawing and coloring some space design thing and looked like they had no trouble. I asked the teacher what I was supposed to do and she said that I should just dive in and ask if the kids needed help. Me being the shy keeping to myself guy was sort of reluctant. But what the heck.
So I just walked to a chinese kid (yea I felt like I was discriminating because I was picking ethnicities to better suit my project needs) and asked his name. Leon then proceeded to draw his planets. I was pretty amazed because they were very realistic looking, with Jupiter or Saturn having the unique cloud pattern that it has. He then pointed at each one, naming them in order with ease. I felt dumb because I wouldn't have been able to do it. He told me he liked astronomy. Hey thats cool, only in middle school and knowing what is your favorite. He then proceeded into telling me that his dad was a biologist. I asked if he thought biology was boring, and he said yep. This kid was pretty bright and well-spoken. He then asked me if I came from UC Davis. Apparently his father works there as a professor. haha, maybe if I take biology I can get bonus points! hah. well, he was from the earlier class so class ended in like 5 minutes.
Next class, we were working on grammar. I looked at the sheet but didn't know how to teach the kids. I mean, I knew how to fill in the blanks, but that pronoun and adverb stuff, I don't know how to really explain or analyze it with those terms. All I ever did was just put whatever sounded right. I never really had a teacher who drilled me on these. I noticed one Asian guy, Justin, was writing a paragraph about watching Dave Chapelle... awesome. I like to watch that too! So I started talking to him, it seemed like I was bothering him. He reacted like how I would have reacted. Answering in short phrases, not carrying conversation. But it was cool. Then I sat there for a while watching the kids speed through the worksheet. I noticed a kid with an electronic dictionary, so I went over to him. His name was pronounced "Yoong" that is not how you spell it, but I'm pretty sure its a Korean name. He was a nice kid, but shy like Justin (I think hes korean too, cus his last name is Kim). Answered in short phrases, while eating his cookie.
Behind him sat a kid that was.. either Latino or European.. he told me about how he made his brother shoot soda through his nose. He was very talkative. There were a couple of talkative kids that spoke freely, regardless of their ethnicity. However, I was wondering if their backgrounds correlated with one another. The stereotype that asians keep to themselves is not true. Leon was not shy, a kid with glasses in the next class was not shy (both asian). On the other hand, some of the "white" kids did not speak much, but I could notice it was mostly because of a language barrier. They had a heavy accent and that probably contributed to the lack of talking.
The other volunteers were older than me. I talked to Mike and John, but the girl I didn't talk to. Mike (senior)came to the US when in 1998, and he graduated high school in 2001. He told me he got beat up and learned "sailor talk" but he fought back. Interesting. Maybe he was kind of kidding because he liked to joke around. I talked to John (Junior) about the class, and what we were going to write about. He did not know the first paper was due this Thursday. He was in engineering too but switched to managerial economics. He told me a lot of people switch that way, I wonder if I would too haha.
what is this hostility? I thought we were friends! since 2nd grade, we have been close... same classes.. same schools.. rivals in spelling.. and now he is in berkeley.. i am in davis.. does this mean he can call me a bitch? i am not going to take this! hahah jpjp henry rawks, means lot to me.. u all do, all my buddies.. goddang who would i be without you guys. i think i coulda been some closed off ultra shy dude that never saw daylight! im still a shy person, but hey, big difference. so yah its not just that, so many good times, good memories, u PMS guys made me laugh the hardest so fackin funny!
last weekend i got to go bowlin with andy alex and henry! it was good to be out, just tossing rocks at the floor. lol for the first few frames, i was liek why is the floor so sticky?? and i kept tripping and throwin it all weird. then on like the 5th frame, i heard them all laugh and i turned around and saw my bowling shoes still sitting there, not being worn. foolishness... yea it was fun, sometimes i wish i went to a school with at least one of the PMS guys, but whatever. Its great when we chill.
last last weekend I got to play bball with andrew perry and gary! hey thats like the other half haha it was good seeing them. shooting hoops, laughing at andrews impressions and shit haha crazy! i realized something, a good portion of my family says i got fatter. and i think andrew and andy said that too. haha i guess its true, college does make u fatter. i think i gained my 15 :P
im sorry hungry, for zoning out.. i dont noe why i do that, computers are evil! i will try not to use computers that much.. except for webcamming! yuh! i think im a much better phone person if i just sit somewhere..
i don't like staying here for so long, it dulls me.. but its also finals week.. so that may explain the dulling.. its coo that i have a cool roomie but a lot of times i have a feeling i want to be home. i just like the feeling of my house. u noe u been there all ur life. sometimes you just sit down and think of all the things that went on there. seriously. its really soothing. I dont think i can ever part with my home. i hope we dont have to sell it or anything. well not never, just it would be hard ya noe.
and more importantly i miss spending time with angel.. on the weeks that im at school thats what i look forward to at the end of the week.. it kind of gets me through the week, u noe work hard during the week so i can the most time i can with her, THAT is happiness :D
i would like to thank my parents and my family for giving me all that i got. no matter what i do, they got my back. thats a great feeling.
heh wuts with all this deepness? iono just stuff i think about hah
Today, I was taking a nap starting at 10, and at around 12 some facko jerkwad started yelling shit in the courtyard like he was the man or something. he was not the man. he pissed me and anfernee off cus we were sleeping. anfernee told me to tell him shut the f--- up, so being groggy and grumpy, i did! now i usually like to hold my temper, but letting it out like that felt good.
Word of advice: to release stress, tell someone to STFU
Well, I am blogging because i just posted a comment on henrys blogger and it was quick and easy! so gooddd.. well i am in the middle of the longest davis stay of my life... 15 days!! crazy stuff.. cus its finals week. I have exactly the correct amount of underwear to last me through this given that I do take a shower everyday... so i don't have to use the school laundrys that cost me a buck fifty! now about socks.. i think i dont have enough.. but i have the perfect plan.. i will go barefoot for some days!
Finals week! plenty of time to study for chem.. i must get an A, i dont noe wheres this obsession with A's has come from, but i want to own.. u noe what i mean? then community final.. i got C in the class so far.. damn im wishing for a B.. i mean the first half of the semester was hecka bad.. all these different definitions of community.. it was all BS and confused the fooze outta me.. now its talking about urban development, which is kind of interesting because it isnt rambling crap that sounds like the same thing over and over again.
i just want to have spring break to do watever! like chill with buddies! and super buddy angel!
recently I've been watching UFC vids again.. go royce gracie! crazy jiu jitsu.. altho thats old school.
and i found something I want for myself! and my spirit --> awesome .. you noe why?? cus my car is so cool it doesnt have a CD player..and many have suggested using a tape converter thinger.. BUT it doesnt have that either.. because it is so cool! so i can use this to send to radio woot.. too bad its sold out :(
well. shes gonna be anyways. I'm pretty excited for her birthday, its gonna be crazy! I want to let out a forewarning not to birthday punch her! or else! well, its not that I'll hurt you.. but she's very violent sometimes. I mean one time I tried to pick her nose, and she elbowed me in the chest! people dont say I didn't warn you!
I haven't really been at my blog for quite some time now.. I guess I haven't really had the time to write what goes on in my head these days.. Or i haven't had the need to.. come to think of it, it seems like Angel is like my blog. :D Whenever I need to vent or talk about something, shes always there to listen to me. So after resolving whatever it was, there is really no need for me to post it. It seems almost repetitive for me to do so.
Well I am 18 now, and many of the changes brought on my college has been felt by many of you. well, I've been reading my pal Henry's blog and it seems like I can relate with many of the things he talks about. About growing up, and moving away from our childhood. Again, after I read his, I would repetitive if I posted it on my own.
There has been some weird thing going on in me lately, like I don't really know how to talk with my old friends like I used to. I don't know what it is. Sometimes there is some awkwardness I feel. I guess so much has happened, and it has been a while since we really all hung out together. Or at least since I've hung out with them, sometimes I feel we've been distanced. I am sure its not something thats very serious, its just a slight awkwardness. I really want to spend more time with them.
I've also had some rough times with Angel lately. It seems like we are indestructable sometimes! but this winterbreak, or lack thereof, tested our relationship. I felt like i almost lost her. I wish life could fast-forward to when I'm working and am able to make my own choices easier. That would be great. But now there are so many things to juggle, I can't find time at times. Angel is so great, and I wish I could be more of a physical boyfriend. heh i don't mean like sexually, but to be present. I know its very hard for her for me to just leave like this, and I am really grateful for her to still stand by me after I've had to leave time and time again. I love her, i really do.. I wish i can make her as happy as she makes me.