Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Wuts up guys, (and girls)

I haven't really been at my blog for quite some time now.. I guess I haven't really had the time to write what goes on in my head these days.. Or i haven't had the need to.. come to think of it, it seems like Angel is like my blog. :D Whenever I need to vent or talk about something, shes always there to listen to me. So after resolving whatever it was, there is really no need for me to post it. It seems almost repetitive for me to do so.

Well I am 18 now, and many of the changes brought on my college has been felt by many of you. well, I've been reading my pal Henry's blog and it seems like I can relate with many of the things he talks about. About growing up, and moving away from our childhood. Again, after I read his, I would repetitive if I posted it on my own.

There has been some weird thing going on in me lately, like I don't really know how to talk with my old friends like I used to. I don't know what it is. Sometimes there is some awkwardness I feel. I guess so much has happened, and it has been a while since we really all hung out together. Or at least since I've hung out with them, sometimes I feel we've been distanced. I am sure its not something thats very serious, its just a slight awkwardness. I really want to spend more time with them.

I've also had some rough times with Angel lately. It seems like we are indestructable sometimes! but this winterbreak, or lack thereof, tested our relationship. I felt like i almost lost her. I wish life could fast-forward to when I'm working and am able to make my own choices easier. That would be great. But now there are so many things to juggle, I can't find time at times. Angel is so great, and I wish I could be more of a physical boyfriend. heh i don't mean like sexually, but to be present. I know its very hard for her for me to just leave like this, and I am really grateful for her to still stand by me after I've had to leave time and time again. I love her, i really do.. I wish i can make her as happy as she makes me.

but... *sigh* back to homework :T


Anonymous said...

You're wonderful. =)
-ah cow =D

Anonymous said...

gary pats you on your back*